Mixed thoughts...

My worship leader on Sunday shared after the service his thoughts on the worship. He was asked to put in the song "Draw me Close" in the midst of other songs he chose. Yet it did not seem to go with the flow. Still, he did it in obedience.

In his heart, he asked "Why Lord? Why do we have this song 'Draw me Close' in the repertoire?"

At the end of the message, he understood. It was all about abiding in God. And through the darkest times one experience, the cry of our hearts is to draw even closer to God! How amazing :)

Like the speaker, I had a dream on Sunday night. But I didn't have the "In Jesus' Name, I command... " incidents. Rather, I dreamt about her... but with another person.

In my conscious waking hours, I resolved to honor her decision and be strong. Yet the subconscious heart pain I felt in my dream was real. No, I can't lie to myself. How much more pain can I take Lord? This outcome is Your will Lord... will You strengthen me and give me the grace to accept it?